Last night as I fell asleep reading my book I was thinking of so many nights of sleeplessness before now. My friend who is struggling right now with this. The other people in my life who do not sleep. The city that does not sleep.... Okay I just got carried away. Point is where does it start and when does it end?
When I was just a baby, as told by stories from my parents, I was sick and there were many doze free nights for months. I wonder did this start my cycle of no sleep or my Mother's. As a small child I can remember the dreams I had waking me and the vividness would carry me to jump in Mom's bed. Then as a teenager worry and distraction. My turn as a Mother. Then the vivid dreams more often.
I tried always to rationalize the reasons for it. I came to a place of realization of positive thinking. This understanding and life change came about only after a friend recommended "Conversations with God" by Donald Walsh to me. It was my first step into recognizing I am not alone and my feelings on life in general were validated. I hermitted for a while. Not too many family gatherings and no friends to really say I'd hang out with or talk to on a daily basis. My simple un-cluttered life (for a short period) proved effective.
I watched my Mom one night as I stayed with her a few years ago. Up and down and up and down all night. The dogs move too much in the bed, put them in the cage, get them out of the cage, let them out to pee, I have to pee, I'm hot, I'm cold. Are my kids well? Etc. and so forth. It really makes me wonder is there a cure for this other than letting go? Mediation and focus.
I am currently reading more on the Laws of attraction according to Abraham and even scientifically it makes sense. Opposites attract. How can one desire (the desire to sleep in this case) happen if we pair it with the same amount of focus on the not happening of that desire.
Sleep was just a focal point as an example for me today. I am going to try this opposites attract theory in my daily life for a little while and see how that works for me. :) As I had in earlier years only allowing the positive to penetrate my life and redirecting the negative. This is another new beginning I am happy to start the journey. Join me if you like. :)
~hugs~
Steph
Tuesday, March 30, 2010
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You are amazing! Lately I've been saying things that the kids say like, "I'm not sleepy..." attracting the exact opposite. ;)
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